On this very uncertain and unsettling day, it is best for me to dwell on God's promises and to reflect on faithfulness to me in the past. I am thankful that Ned was able to breath on his own at birth, thankful that he sailed through his hernia repair surgery, thankful that he responds to the sound of my voice and seems to be aware that his Mommy is there and loves him, thankful that we were blessed enough to have foreknowledge of some of his complications so we could be in a facility with wonderful medical care, thankful that God spent years preparing Travis and I for this journey by bringing us deeper into a daily walk with Him so that we would know His word and be able to trust in it during this time, thankful that we are able to have children, thankful that I have been blessed with a Godly husband and thankful that God does not forsake me nor leave me.
I have received so many scriptures that have lifted and carried me through some of my darker days. I received one in the mail from our Bible teacher just yesterday (how perfect is God's timing). I have taped it to Ned's bed and I pray it over him all day long :
13 What, what would have become of me had I not believed that I would see the Lord's goodness in the land of the LIVING!
14Wait and hope for and EXPECT the Lord; be brave and of good courage and let your (Ned's) heart be stout and enduring. Yes, wait for and hope for and EXPECT the Lord.
Please continue to pray for little Ned's healing. I sense such a special nature in his sweet spirit. While I long for the day when I can hold him and calm his fears and pains, at this time, I must be willing and content to allow him to continue to rest in the arms of the Lord. I believe that God will allow me to raise and be a mother to Ned, but my time for that has not yet come. But I will continue to go boldly before the throne and make my requests to him and believing that my God will answer me.
One more verse for Ned: (Luke 1:66,80)
66And all who heard them laid them up in their hearts, saying, Whatever will this little boy be then? For the hand of the Lord was so evidently with him protecting and aiding him.
80And the little boy grew and became strong in spirit;
Thank you all for your faithful prayers for my baby!
Betsy, Travis, Jack & Ned