Betsy has gone home to Cherryville to see Jack, Margaret and her family for the weekend, and I came up after work today to stay with Nedder (as I have started calling him for some odd reason...maybe b/c I call Jack, Jacker). I went home last night (Thursday) to get my truck out of the shop and see the progress on the house, then worked today and came back tonight. Anyway, Ned is still doing well tonight. They have gotten him down to 30mm on the jet vent, and the Dr. told me that we're getting close to being able to get on the regular vent, hopefully by the end of the weekend. The nurse gave him a bath tonight right before I got here (I think his 2nd bath, boy is he in for a rude awakening when we get him home... 2 baths in 3 weeks???... me and Jack tried to skip his bath once... and only once if you know what I mean... Betsy doesn't like her babies to be dirty!) and he was not very happy when I arrived. She cleaned his incision very well, and he didn't seem to like that. They have taken the stiches out of it, and it's kinda open right now, to let any infection that might try to set in come out (better out than in I always say ... OK those of you with kids who insist on watching Shrek 4,000 times a week get it). It was heart-breaking to see that on your little child, but I know it's for the best, and it will help in the long run. Anyway, I caught myself, just for a minute, thinking "Why us?". God immediately reminded me of when I was talking to Betsy's uncle, and my very good fishing buddy and friend in Christ of mine, Mark, even before Ned was born, back when we first found out about Ned's condition, and I said to him that I was wanting to ask God "Why us?", but wasn't sure if that was my place or not. He simply looked me dead in the eye, and said, "Why not you?". This sharp comment, loaded with truth, has stuck with me, and everytime I find myself overwhelmed by the circumstances, I always say to myself, "Why not us?". I am thankful that God is richly blessing us, and hopefully everyone who reads this blog, through this endeavor. Being in a place like this, you really realize that the saying "it could be worse" is absolutely true. My prayer is that someone who may be reading this blog about Ned's life so far will gain hope and faith and comfort in our Lord and Savior. I really think this blog was God-ordained, and I'm so thankful that my wife was "listening" enough to start this. It's amazing how God puts people and circumstances in our lives to speak to us for Him all the time, and we just miss them completely. I know I do. I can only imagine how it will feel when we are with Christ and he shows us what all we've missed along this journey. That brings me to the next lesson I learned tonight. When I got back up here to Chapel Hill, I found Betsy had left me some scripture that Ann (our Sat. morning Bible study teacher) had sent to us up here. It was from Isaiah 49:2 that says, "In the shadow of His hand hath He hid me - and made me a polished shaft - in His quiver He hid me!" She went on to write that we must all go through the shadowey parts of life, the darkness. But then she went on to say that in the darkness is where we grow exponentially. It is then, that he is polishing us. That dark shadow we're in is actually the shade of His hand, holding us just within reach, and never letting us go. I take comfort in the fact that even in the "dark" times, Christ still has a firm grasp on my family. When we are not seeing the light of day, we are actually being molded, groomed, and hopefully growing in our faith and everyday walk with the Lord!
I'm so thankful for all of you that God has put in our paths along the way. I thank God for all of you that are sending cards and flowers, calling, and faithfully lifting Ned and my famly up in prayer. We have met some incredible people up here also, like James and Honey, who themselves have little Delsin who was up in the NICU beside Ned. I ran into them tonight, and it's very comforting to know that people you just met and don't really know are actually praying for your little one, as we are for theirs. Please keep Delsin in your prayers as well.
OK, I'm done for the night.
Thanks to all of you again.