"What would have become of me had I not believed that I would see the Lord's goodness in the land of the LIVING. Wait, hope for and EXPECT the Lord. Be strong and of good courage and may your heart (Ned) be sturdy and enduring.....Yes, Wait For and Hope For and Expect the Lord."

Psalm 27:13-14 (Amp)

Thursday, February 7, 2008

A Day of Rest

I spent my entire day by Ned's bedside from about 10:00am until 11:00pm. While I realize that doesn't sound like a day of rest, it certainly was blissfully peaceful. My little Ned came down on his vent settings some today (we're now at 31 and need to get down to the lower 20's for surgery) and he tolerated more small changes without any effects on his stats!!! In fact, his stats remained so steady today that his monitor didn't alarm one time all day. Since it was so quiet and my eyes didn't stay fixed on his monitors all day, I read an entire book... Max Lucado's "3:16". I recommend it....it's a quick read (obviously) and there is a good bit of Jewish and Greek cultural and lingual details that better define how Jesus would have been interpreted during His time on this earth.

There were several parts of this book that have really stuck with me today. The first is that in John 1:38 when John and Andrew first encounter Jesus, their first request from him is "where are you staying?". Lucado points out that their main interest is in getting to know Jesus, and in joining Him wherever He is. They could have asked for signs and miracles upon their first meeting in order for Jesus to prove His deity, but instead, they were interested in being near Him so they could better know him. I think that is so profound. We often give the Lord a laundry list of all the things we would like from Him and all that we would like for Him to do for us, but we haven't taken one step out of our routine and comfort zone to follow Him where He leads us. Whether you hear the voice of God urging you to "follow Him" or if you are simply seeking Him out to know something greater, it is important to realize that what you can learn from knowing Him is far more powerful than receiving what you demand from Him.

Today I am prising God for allowing me to be Ned's mother. I looked at my little one in his bed tonight and I marveled at how God could use such a tiny person to speak to the lives of so many adults. My life has been blessed to be a part of what God is doing in the hearts of others through Ned's sickness. I wondered how Mary must have felt to have been chosen to raise Jesus and how blessed she must have felt to have been given the honor of providing and caring for God in His feeble infant body....Wow!

God has answered our prayers to allow Ned to continue to slowly be weaned off the vent. We are praying for continuation of such success. I also want to praise God for answering the prayer of a close friend who has been having some fears and concerns about her ability to have children. We are also thanking God for allowing Travis to get home safely today. I thank God for the peace he has delivered in Ned's room the past couple days. While the road ahead still looks a bit rocky, I think it is important to focus on and give thanks for the prayers He has already answered. In seeing from where He has brought us, looking at where we're going doesn't look so insurmountable.

Again thank you all for your prayers, cards, emails, phone calls and other ways you have shown us love and support. I want to apologize for not always responding to emails. If I don't have your email address, I can't respond to the messages left on the blog? I just wanted everyone to know that when I can, I attempt to personally thank everyone for their love, but I can't always get in touch with everyone? Love and blessings to you all!

Betsy, Travis, Jack & Ned

3 comments:

alice said...

Betsy,
I've kept up with everything through Robin and your blog. I am in awe at your faith and strength, and want you to know that you are constantly in my prayers. I've loved you since you were a baby yourself, and I hate to think that you are having to go through this. Just know that you have touched me with your messages, and I will continue to pray for you and your family. Love, Alice

Anonymous said...

Betsy,
What encouraging news! I am so glad that Ned is tolerating the reductions of the vent and doing well with it. I missed seeing you on Sunday but was glad to see Travis & Ned. Ned is adorable! I hope you had a nice visit at home with Jack and Margaret. Just know that you are in our thoughts and prayers daily. Your blogs just inspire me each day as I read what God has done that day... What a testimony to each one that reads your blog as you share from your heart. Take care and know that if our family can do anything, we are a phone call or email(theffner1@carolina.rr.com)away... We love you! Tammy, Randy, & Colby

belle said...

Betsy & Travis,
It is SO good to see Ned taking tiny steps. I'm lovin his Carolina spirit...(sorry Travis). Betsy, I got in late last night and jumped right to your blog. I was pleased to see Ned's pics...he is beautiful! Glad to hear his monitor didn't sound off continuously...I know how scary that is from when Heath had his wreck and was on a ventilator in NICU. Just to let you know, you're in our thoughts and prayers while at the hospital and on the road. Glad Travis made it home safely to work and so glad to hear Ned had more of a peaceful day yesterday, therefore MOMMY DID TOO! Carlton comes in everyday and says "Let's check on Baby Ned..." It's amazing how even God's little children have been touched by your family. Hope this weekend continues to shower you with blessings and remember Mom...'take care of YOURself as well'... Praying and thinking of you...
Belle & Heath and kids