Well, we sent Ned off to his first surgery about 2:30 this afternoon and we expect it to be completed around 8:30. When I say his first surgery that is now because about an hour before they decided to repair his hernia today, the doctors let us know that they think that there is a narrowing in one part of Ned's aorta (which is heart vessel). They expect that it will need surgery as well once he has gotten stabilized following his hernia repair. All of this news was a bit overwhelming for me to be honest. I was already feeling a overwhelmed by the hernia repair today....I really could have waited until we made it through one surgery before we started discussing another. However, I'll have to say, the surgeons and surgical staff here have made us feel as confident and comfortable as possible. I am so tahnkful that God led us to this place to go through this.
For me, today, has been the most frightening part of this journey since his initial diagnosis. I'm not sure why, exactly. It could be partly hormonal, but something about knowing they are taking my son's little body off to cut into it was just difficult for me accept today. It isn't really a fear that God won't protect Ned through the surgery, I guess it's just hard for me to continue to hand him over when he's now here and I can, or could, have my hands on him. Please pray that I will find peace and comfort in the modified version of motherhood I am playing at this time.
Please keep Ned and the surgical staff in your prayers this afternoon. I have gotten somewhat caught up in trying to make sure that I pray for every little detail of the surgery, but the truth is that I don't know enough to try to control the details of the surgery through prayer. So, now I am mostly praying for God's presence to hover in the entire operating room. I have been thinking about how when Jacob was wrestling with God he refused to let go until God blessed him. That's kinda how I feel this afternoon. I am completely exhausted and I want to give into my fears, but I am hanging on to God and refusing to let go and until I receive the blessing of restoring my son.
I'll keep you posted. Love to you all!
Betsy, Travis, Jack & Ned